Is “have to” a “want to” killer?

I feel like it is for me.

When I’ve got a stack of things I “have to” write for school (which is always since I’m a history student), it kills my “want to” when it comes to writing anything else. (This is evidenced by the fact that I haven’t posted in over two months.)

I hate it.

The same thing happens to me when it comes to reading.

Is anyone else else like this?